changes...

life is not simple... it never is..
i have been thinking of writing back in blog, but i'm not too sure
last nite i was thinking that maybe i started to hate guy
i don't know what do i need guy for
i earn my own living, i change my own tyre, i fix my own sink & toilet, i change my own bulb, even rectify where the problem lies, change mcb...
i know there's other use for guy other than these, but at the moment i'm doing fine with my own..
well, there's other things in life than finding your soulmate right?
i'm trying to do all the things that i dont have the chance of doing before, but i think this is the best time now

my first entree

i start my blog on the day i got ditched.
dats y, i choose the title as looking for love.
i think i'm desperately looking for love right now, or I'm going crazy.

urgh!! this blog also testing my patient

I hate this guy so, much which i sayang so much before
Now think about it, whatever he told me before is a lie....
he's not handsome, not rich, not young, not cool
but I juz love him
now he's leaving me as he think it's the best??
it's the best for you only ok!!
you selfish, (&*&(*&*,(*@0 whatever....

how could he dont even want to see me for even the last time?
and thru phone only..??
who the hell he think he is?
I have been thinking of leaving him for a long time, but i cant accept that he say he want us to go separate way
no way!!! he dont have the right to do so, or else i think he's been using me all this while

urgh! this feeling sucks. i never knew this feeling as this is the first time beeing ditched.
this is even my first love....
really, i really need somebody now. this is a forbidden love so nobody knows
this is making me crazy....
God help me...