Maybe I've been cursed

I have been facing a lot of difficulties lately, especially in the last couple of years. What baffles me is how things can come one after another, continuously. It's like I've been cursed or something.

I'll just talk about the things that happen since last Sunday. At first, I left my debit card, student card and touch and go card with my Sony Walkman original red color inside my Mongolian pouch on top of autopay machine at Menara Getah Asli KL. Thus, I have to drive to klcc twice to retrieve that.

Let's talk about what happen today.
(Oh no.. Why la this uber playing cinta pantai merdeka.. now he's singing along and I feel like too).

So we went to pay my car full settlement at affin bank. We can't withdraw the money from affin because there's a limit for asb withdrawal. So, we need to go to rhb. I am now trying very much to stay true to any rules and regulations because I found that I am in very bad luck whenever I break any rules. For example that my car being clamped just because I park at other place. So, what happen is I normally use the seat belt. Anyway this time I don't, because Affin and RHB located so close to each other. Just when I turn to the corner at wetex parade, there stood 3 policemen and asking me to stop. Yes, I got a ticket for that..

Right after I pay the settlement, we reversed the car and guess what, the gear box having problems again. I feel they are too loose and can't engage the next gear. Damn. 

The gear stuck to R and I can't reset that. I am blocking the parking and everybody come looking. I can't restart because "R". I then decide that I need to call NSS and tow my car to Shah Alam. 

When does all this things happen to me one after another? I seldom want to believe about invisible things, but I don't know what to believe anymore now.

I write..

I start writing blog because I wanted to practice my writing. I don't have formal learning about writing other than from school. I  did not have formal literature schooling other than high school. I don't even think that I can be a very good writer. Knowledgeable, witty and engaging.

I really wonder if I can be a good writer. I always prefer male writer when reading blogs, or books, or article. This make me wonder if I can a different writer than those writer I don't like. For me most of female writers like to put too much unnecessary details. A lot of female writer choose topics which don't interest me too. Too much love story. Too many details. Too much of happily ever after. I just hope that I don't end up doing the same mistake that I hate.

Another reason that I find might effect my writing, is that I am such a private person. I value privacy too much, or probably I just have low self-esteem.

I do hope I can be more committed in writing. I do feel like I shall write more important stuff. I also think that keeping journal is a very good way to express yourself. I still won't write about lifestyle or what to wear or anything like most of the female writer, I just hope that I can write more imformative stuff. I also hope that I can leave something useful to anybody who happen to read. That, is my life aim.

11.1.2018 - Shah Alam