thursday ~ 270510

Tak guna keta lawa dan best giler kalau tak pandai bwk keta. Sekian terima kasih.
- sebab ada pemandu sengal yang tak pandai kereta. harap je kereta lawa. sengal!

Its funny how we fight.
-suddenly i found it very funny how we fight. and in the end nobody win. well, actually he always win. but I'm determine to win this time.

bosannya facebook hari nih.
- apahal takde org hr nih. takde status best2.. takde komen2 best2... peminat2 juga tiada....

please make my thursday a good one.
- hopefully i manage to complete most of my task. hopefuly I manage to have a good day also...

Born in April

Sifat orang yang lahir pada bulan April biasanya:
1: Sangat aktif dan dinamik.
- I think I do. Active & dynamic even though not really showed..

2: Cepat bertindak membuat keputusan tetapi cepat menyesal.
- Am I?... I'm not sure but at times I did regret on my decision... hmm...

3: Sangat menarik dan pandai menjaga diri.
- Hahaha... lately I feel so. :D

4: Punya daya mental yang sangat kuat.
- Always do. always do..

5: Suka diberi perhatian.
- I don't think so. I like to remain anonymous... but I like to stand-out from others. being unique..

6: Sangat diplomatik (pandai memujuk ).
- Possible. But maybe I havn't develop it yet :P

7: Berkawan dan pandai menyelesaikan masalah orang.
- haha... got tonnes of my unsolved. be friendly? I think I' a lone ranger most of the time, independent, but being with friend is also appealing to me. Means I can be with or without friend. No problem.

8: Sangat berani dan tiada perasaan takut.
- Well... what can I say. People say that I'm too berani... always get this kind of advise. Ko jgn berani-berani sangat... Watching horror movie is one of my hobby. Adventurous? Well, what else to explain all the scar and accident I involve in?

9: Suka perkara yang mencabar, pengasih, penyayang, sopan santun dan pemurah
- I like aadventurous thing and to challange myself. See how far can I go. At the same time, my value is still maintained.. :) sopan-santun, loveable, kind-hearted, etc etc... :)

10: Emosi cepat terusik.
- I don't think so. being me, don't allow me to do so. Growing up in my situation and environment making me a cold-hearted sometimes.

11: Cuba kawal perasaan.
- Yes I do. I don't get emotionally involve so easily.

12: Kecenderungan bersifat pendendam.
- Very true... very-very true... I'm still trying to be more forgiveable..

13: Agresif dan kelam kabut dalam membuat keputusan.
- hastily

14: Kuat daya ingatan.
- I think so..

15: Gerak hati yang sangat kuat.
- Good insticnt? Not sure.

16: Pandai mendorong diri sendiri dan memotivasikan orang lain.
- Yes. I'm a positive person. and I believe by being positive you will be able to make yourself feel better and you will be able to achieve more. rather than grieving...

Well, some is quite true, but some is not. but I think based on his pemerhatian and kajian, this is well, almost describe me. and maybe others too...

upset :|

I'm very upset due to this particular reason.
I've been delaying the work until I cannot delay it anymore.

Nak cepat-cepat, tapi menyusahkan org.
Org ajar degil pulak tak nak dengar.
Suruh wat list bagi senang pun tak paham.

Geram.

lain kali kalau nak menyusahkan orang tu tolong paham sikit ye.
lain kali tu kalau orang ajar tu sila la jgn degil sangat, sila la jgn sombong sangat.

being older doesn't mean you are automatically wiser. maybe you are expert in one area but in other you no nothing.

ah~ anyhow I still have to continue the work.
This is 2.42am in the morning and I need to be early tomorrow. sigh~~

Ya Allah give me some strength.

jam biologi

omg.
apa aku buat pukul 5.50 lom tido nih?
azan subuh dah masuk. sembahyang dulu baru tido?
then, pukul berapa nak pegi keje...? adoi la.

notakaki: aku lom jumpa resit, mcmana nak buat e-filing. instead aku wat benda2 yg tak berkaitain. owh~~

pantry & ikan laga

Kat opis kami ada pantri.
hari ni aku masuk utk breakfast mcm biasa....
Di pantri office kami ada 2 ekor ikan laga, tp akak tu letak dalam 1 balang.
Kesian, br 2 hari dah koyak rabak ekor.
Skrg pun dok kejar-kejar. Takut isnin nanti tinggal seekor je...


Sian...






... dah bgtau kat akak tuh, dia kata takpe ni dah tak kejar-kejar dah. adoi la...

further study

i'd like to further my study. really really.

first i don't know whether to continue in engineering field or science or business and management

then i'm not sure about my pocket capability

then, i dno't know about my time management ability

but then again, i'd really like to continue...

really really..

Insomnia

I think I'm suufering from insomnia, and from wikipedia, it maybe falls under terminal (or late) insomnia.
Here is something about the insomnia and what are the possible causes.

Terminal (or late) insomnia - early morning waking. Often a characteristic of clinical depression.

Then let see what is clinical depression.

Major depressive disorder (also known as clinical depression, major depression, unipolar depression, or unipolar disorder) is a mental disorder characterized by an all-encompassing low mood accompanied by low self-esteem, and loss of interest or pleasure in normally enjoyable activities.

Which I think I have...
Then, let us see some sign and symptoms.

Major depression is a serious illness that affects a person's family and personal relationships, work or school life, sleeping and eating habits, and general health.[1] Its impact on functioning and well-being has been equated to that of chronic medical conditions such as diabetes.[2]

A person suffering a major depressive episode usually exhibits a very low mood, which pervades all aspects of life, and an inability to experience pleasure in activities that formerly were enjoyed. Depressed people may be preoccupied with, or ruminate over, thoughts and feelings of worthlessness, inappropriate guilt or regret, helplessness, hopelessness, and self-hatred.[3] In severe cases, depressed people may have symptoms of psychosis. These symptoms include delusions or, less commonly, hallucinations, usually of an unpleasant nature.[4] Other symptoms of depression include poor concentration and memory (especially in those with melancholic or psychotic features),[5] withdrawal from social situations and activities, reduced sex drive, and thoughts of death or suicide.

Insomnia is common among the depressed. In the typical pattern, a person wakes very early and is unable to get back to sleep.[6] Hypersomnia, or oversleeping, is less common.[6] Appetite often decreases, with resulting weight loss, although increased appetite and weight gain occasionally occur.[3] The person may report multiple physical symptoms such as fatigue, headaches, or digestive problems; physical complaints are the most common presenting problem in developing countries, according to the World Health Organization's criteria for depression.[7] Family and friends may notice that the person's behavior is either agitated or lethargic.[6]

Depressed children often display an irritable rather than a depressed mood,[3] and show varying symptoms depending on age and situation.[8] Most exhibit a loss of interest in school and a decline in academic performance. They may be described as clingy, demanding, dependent, or insecure.[6] Diagnosis may be delayed or missed when symptoms are interpreted as normal moodiness.[3] Depression may also coincide with attention-deficit hyperactivity disorder (ADHD), complicating the diagnosis and treatment of both.[9]

Older depressed persons may have cognitive symptoms of recent onset, such as forgetfulness,[5] and a more noticeable slowing of movements.[10] Depression often coexists with physical disorders common among the elderly, such as stroke, other cardiovascular diseases, Parkinson's disease, and chronic obstructive pulmonary disease.[11]

Well, I do have history of diabetes within close family members. But not on the psychosis. I dont think I have it that bad.

Should I start getting some treatment? I hope I can overcome my insomnia soon, and be happy again and enjoying my life...