blogger yang penat

aku penat hari nih
penat je datang awl (tak la awal sgt pun)
penat wat report yang banyak (mmg bnyk pun)
penat baca blog (hehe.... bnyk blog)
penat chatting
penat pakai baju kebaya (hehe.. hehe)

aku pun penat nak fikir apa nak tulis sebenarnya... hahahah.....
tp tgk blogger2 tuh cambest jer citer diorg

lantak lah

esok2 tulis lagik.

" your outlook on life is a direct reflection on how much you like yourself"

Sehari di Bukit Cerakah (Taman Pertanian Bukit Cahaya Seri Alam)

Plan untuk ke Genting terpaksa di batalkan kerana ketiadaan pengangkutan!

Kemudian untuk tidak menghampakan diri masing-masing kami pun bercadang untuk pergi ke Bukit Cerakah Shah Alam.
Bukan pilihan yang terbijak, pada musim cuti sekolah ni.

Tiada basikal untuk di naiki...

Kelewatan bas....

Cuaca yang sangat panas....

Apa-apa pun kami bercadang untuk memastikan persinggahan kami ke Bukit Cerakah berbaloi :)

After 1 year.....

after 1 year......

well, i don't really know what to write in this entry.
It was last week that i realize that it has been 1 year since I start this blog. Means that it has been 1 year since he ditched me. It has been 1 year since I feel so.... It all happen 1 year ago...
Sometimes I just wonder if I really miss him... But, recently I keep thinking of him. Wonder how he has been doing.
Sometimes I just don't care.
Whatever..

I think that I'm happier these days... Can be seen by my increasing weight. :)

I've been wanting the break-up long before that, but I just cannot accept that he's the one leaving me. Because all this while, he have kept telling me don't go..... &#!+

Whatever...

Break-up really do me good :)
I got to do thing which I'm unable to do before.
I got time for things I've never have time for before.
I don't have headache for the stupid relationship anymore.
All and all, I think I'm happy.

But to forgive him..... never....

~the day when the glory of youth leave you~

it is a hot day, and i feel so sleepy i can't help it.
it is then i decided to write something in my blog. the blog that i've quite forgotten for quite some times...

why today suddenly i'm writing about the glory of youth?
well it maybe because of what i encounter during lunch today.
i was having my lunch @ ani sup utara today. alone. (yes, it's normal). and i saw a group of student having their meal in front of me. there are 10 of them. some wearing their uni shirt. 5 girls and 5 boys. i dont think they are all couples, not saying that. they maybe some study group, or assignment group juz finish discussion and decided to have lunch together.
it makes me think of my student year. how i miss those days.
then it struck me. how old could this group of student be? cannot be more than 21 right? it's almost 10 years my junior! and seeing them make me feel old, spent.

try thinking of my achievement... hmm, not much.
how about my experience?... hmm, not so much nice one
friends? .....got quite a few. but, i can't seem to figure what are they up to these days

it make me think again (again....). have i waste my youth with something not meaningful?
then, i decide that i must do everything i plan to do before. there shouldn't be any regret in life. i don't want to grow old regretting many things.
i haven't had my swim lesson (well, juz enroll in a class last week. yeay!!). havn't climb the gunung kinabalu, gunung than, gunung jerai... not even gunung nuang! i decide that i shouldn't wait for all these people, i should go for what i wanted.

this is one quote i decide will work for me for now.
"learn new thing every month"
so, i've enroll in a swimming class. i've decided that i'm going to find a mandarin class later, then a kick-boxing or martial art class. well, one class for one or two month only! ~limited budget ler~ :P

well, it's all for now i guess.
i've decided to put a daily quote (well, per entry post only. not necessarily daily) for every post. so, here goes...

quote for today:
"choose a positive thought. the conscious brain can only hold one thought at a time"

The journey that turn sour

I know I said to post the details of the accident, but I'm not sure how...

Well, it was a planned holiday and we look forward for that. But, things just went wrong. How would we know right?

It was a very nice place. Lata Kinjang in Tapah, Perak. But the place is too slippery and dangerous...
We had fun, took few pictures until, my adventurous side get me into this...
I was thinking that I would like to go further at the place where some other people went. Very near to the waterfall. All the while, we just dipping at the safe pool very near to a shady tree.
But, there's some very big rock there which are very slippery....
We were there all the time, stepping on the rock so many times, but...
Suddenly there was a big lizard come around our resting place and one of my fren get scared, and me, not careful enough accidently sliped and my face go straight to the big rock......
Ah!... I am traumatized with the accident. I can still see the pieces of my teeth on the rock. And then I see it... One teeth actually fall on the rock also, and I can only imagine......
Then the blood start coming out. Alot!
I know it won't stop. I know it won't stop immediately. Coz I got my teeth in my palm...
I was thinking, how will I look. I know it is the front one.
OMG!
Ya Allah!
What happen to me..? How does this happen to me?
Why? Why the front teeth?
Why it has to come out..?
I want to go to hospital..
Pls, rush me to the hospital please!
Now! Immediately! I need to fix this!
Argh!!!....

Blood start pouring out like the waterfall in front of me, and I don't dare to think of how will I look. I'm totally panic.

When unfortunate thing happen....

I need early rest and the painkiller's not working. Yet this blog really pissed me off! Feel like I would like to remove the blog and move to another provider.
There's really unfortunate event took place today, and I officially make myself ugly today, on 27 Dec 08...
Yet, I was not all... They come in series... the doctor come in a bit late, there's no clinic open tomorrow, the hospital there is not fully equipped, and the earliest I can go to a clinic will be on Tuesday, 30 Dec 08. How I wish, there will be one tomorrow...I really don't wish to meet other people until I'm confident and comfortable, and it will only happen after 1 month.
How I wish I don't have to meet people in 1 month time!
Being in this condition, really open my eyes of who the real friend is. Who will be with you for fun and happy only and who will stick around when you need them the most...
I dont think that I will put a long and detail entry today as I am not able to stand anymore, but I will try to put
a detail entry tomorrow if I can... For myself... My face is swollen, and it is start to pain more and more now..
I wonder if thers's anything that causing such unfortunate thing to happen to me, but I dont know.
Being in such condition make me think of people who happen to be in fight, boxing, extreme sport... Don't they feel the pain? How about those born with ugly feature, or cacat... I wonder how they feel... I should be grateful shouldn't I?...

changes...

life is not simple... it never is..
i have been thinking of writing back in blog, but i'm not too sure
last nite i was thinking that maybe i started to hate guy
i don't know what do i need guy for
i earn my own living, i change my own tyre, i fix my own sink & toilet, i change my own bulb, even rectify where the problem lies, change mcb...
i know there's other use for guy other than these, but at the moment i'm doing fine with my own..
well, there's other things in life than finding your soulmate right?
i'm trying to do all the things that i dont have the chance of doing before, but i think this is the best time now