i miss somebody~~

I miss somebody and I feel like a fool.

How can I miss somebody I dont even share too much words with?

can I contact him tonight?

will he answer my call...? i mean my FB call only.
But I'm not sure whether he will be online or not... cause....

aish, what is this feeling? Why do I feel this way?

feeling....

I'm not sure what do I feel about him.
I'm not sure whether I like him....
I don't really got the chance to talk to him before.
But why suddenly...?

I feel like a school kid had a crush for the first time.

But the problem is, I'm not sure what do I feel about him....

Maybe I like him cause he's young...?
About my age even though he's abit younger?
He's in the same post with me?
He's continuing his study?
He's from a boarding school, just like me?
He's not that innocent, not that goody-two-shoes....
He's from near-by town, very close to my hometown?
He look as if he's interested.... well, a little..?
I don't know, but I need him to be more blunt. Be more dare...

And I feel a bit jealous, when I saw that they are so close.
urgh!
well, she look much prettier than me... and I'm not in my best condition now.
What shall I do?
And I don't even help the situation by doing what I did on last Saturday...

What I really want to know is, if he's interested or not.
I may be a bit nervous, and awkward. But if he's interested.... than, all will be ok...

kita insan biasa

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vsRXnxjwT2

watch this video.

reminds me that we are normal people, never far from doing mistake.

reminds me of alot of things.

wishing that I can turn back time.

and i shall not be so upset about the things happen today...

bored...

it's such a boring day today.

i don't know what to do, and i don't know what to feel.

i'm hungry but i can't eat much.

i'm tired, but i can't sleep well also. this has to blamed on my neighbour. how could they be so inconsiderate. how can there be such people. i'm thinking of throwing some stone to their house, or yell from my room to tell then to shut up! and switch off the light!

i feel like a stalker... why?
seen the episode of ugly betty where she accidently met with henry, her first love? then, she began to follow him on facebook, try to find out where he is, and what he's doing. basically same with me, except this guy is not my ex. well, i probably have a little crush on him.

so, he's not interested, i got it. but... i dont know, he seems to have a little interest in me. but again, it maybe just on my mind.
what does it on him that i find attractive..? maybe cause he's young, and single.... hahahaha...
but nevermind, if he's not interested, it doesn't matter much to me, it'll just make it easier for me to face him. but he does make my heart beat a lil'.... bit faster you know.. :p
actually, he's into outdoor, he's not so bad looking, he's quite near to my hometown... which i think make it more alluring...

so, i decide to watch the korean series which i still havn't got time to finish yet. it's been quite sometimes, but i just can't find the time. boys over flower.... maybe later. cause now i got hooked up with faizal tahir. music always heal my soul. maybe i'll play some zee avi or lenka's song before bed time tonite.

oh, i forget to tell. i went to the office today, but i only manage to finish one report, which i'm not too sure if its ok also. hmm.. i hate being junior. no, i hate when i feel incompetent. and i don't know who to refer to. i hate asking. and i don't know where to refer to....
i still got another report which i'm supposed to finish by tomorrow morning, so it can be presented on tuesday evening.

i'll be on leave next week cause i need to send my mom for her doc's appointment. and i hate so much that i still havn't got my laptop. and i hate my friend..... for she's being too selfish.
i hate my boss, and i hate my group leader. and i hate mr x, for not returning my affection to him. come on, i just need someone to talk to, who knows the condition there.... :((

my client said that I dont look a day older than 7 years younger of my real age

the title says all...

Am I happy or what.

they don't even believe when I said that I was way past that age.

No boyfriend? why not married yet? are you too choosey? Can't believe that...

hmm.. this only got minimum answer from me.

So, what I like about it is, I believe that I got what I want unintentionally.

I's single by choice, and I'm single and loving every bit of it.

Confused

now i'm confuse.

I'm not sure, which is which.

..............................

I think I shall leave it as it is first la.

I'll decide later. Maybe it's time to think.

arghh!!
(even this kind of thing can give you headache? duh!)

a wind of change

i need a change

first thing first

well, first of all, i think i shall change this blog's header. it's too big it's taking a lot of space. maybe just a reduce in size is acceptable. hmmm...

actually i was thinking of changing the name and address itselt, but somehow... maybe later i guess.

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I got a class today. well, i don't want to waste the class' fee right?
Anyhow, I'm still stuck here on the bed, browsing thru the internet. hmm....

I need to go back to my hometown today. I got appointment. which is not mine. which is not interesting at all.
urgh pegi tgk org kawin bukan seronok pun...
well, tapi dah janji.
then i need to stop by at my sis' place, to check on my niece.
i guess she got high fever.... pity her. no wonder i didn't hear her voice at all last time when i call. she was admitted to hospital and warded for 2 days.
wonder how bad was she...

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I got addicted to a guy's blog.
I wonder how he look like... :) ;)

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~~today is another day, live it as you've never live it before~~