Quick update - 5/5/2020

Well, it's has been a while since I post anything here. It's not like I don't have anything to write but I just found that I have many other channel to express it.

I kinda quit Facebook few years back because it gave me depression. Have Twitter, in fact I have two. Heck, no three actually. One which I created just to express my feeling and rant. I was in a very bad place back then. I still do, but I manage a little bit now.
I have one which I sign up at 2009, around the time I had my Facebook and blog. I still use it though but people know who I am there so I (accidentally) created another one using my official email where I sign using unknown name (to people who know me). I use this one more these days because anonymity, and I follow a lot of people who think they're smart and underestimate others. In other word, I follow a lot of Malaysian's tweetfamous and news channel.

A lot has been happening recently. The coronavirus, the change of government, langkah Sheraton and all, the drama of new Prime Minister, the lockdown or in our terms MCO (Movement Control Order). There's work from home, fasting alone (yeah that's not new), alone for Hari Raya (kinda sad, even though I don't really know if I really want to celebrate raya). Yeah all those sort of thing.

I found myself less sad these days when I don't go to work, but I find my motivation lacking.
I bought a lot of things during these MCO period but mostly just food. I plan to read more but I get distracted by Netflix.

The lack of motivation is real though. I even feel the lack of motivation in meeting new people. I keep trying to reach some friend but most of them totally abandoned me. Yeah, it hurts but the hell with them.

I am now writing at 2.22am on 5/5/2020. Wow, it's such a great time to write and to end. A lot of the thing I wrote above can be written later. ciao.

Am I too difficult to be friend with?

So, today 13-Jan-2020, I am left with myself again.
Nobody even ask me for lunch.
Their talk doesn't include me at all.

I know I don't fancy talking about other people, but they never include me in anything.

I really hate it here.

I hate everyone here.

Sick of trying

I'm sick of trying.

I just want to make an honest friend.

I just want a friend that can be friend unconditionally.

I am a very good friend, but if you can't be a friend to support me when I'm down, I just don't want to be too supportive.

I just want somebody who would want to put same effort as I did in friendship.

Is it too difficult to ask?

LET ME OUT OF HERE!!!!!

AAAARRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

I hate it. I am so stress that I can't tell this to anyone, but shit! shit! shit!

I hate doing the explosive things because that's not my thing.

I hate doing follow up for things people don't want to do.

I hate it.

I want to do something else. 

But they ask somebody who don't want to do that for the things which I want.

I need a purpose.

I need a sense of direction.

Btw I am soooooo angry talking to my sister I come out with this s#!+.

[10:44 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: omg sy stress betul la! stress sgt!

[10:44 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy nk ckp je sbb sy xde org nk ckp dgn sy nih

[10:50 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Sama stress

[10:50 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Jom la stress sama2

[11:08 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy kan....

[11:08 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy kan study energy management

[11:08 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy buat renewable energy

[11:08 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: green energy

[11:08 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sustainability

[11:09 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: lps tu diorg suruh sy buat o&g pny

[11:09 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy dh la x suka

[11:09 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: then, ktrg mmg ada psl eco label

[11:09 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: pasal green engine

[11:09 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: green procurement

[11:09 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: tp dia suruh org lain buat

[11:09 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: org tu x suka pulak

[11:09 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy mcm geramnya!!!!!!

[11:10 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy kena cakap dgn siapa nih?!

[11:11 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy mcm nak jerit!

[11:11 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy kalau dpt master sy, sy dh apply job lain dah

[11:11 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: ya Allah geramnya

[11:11 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sbb tu sy perlu duit tuh

[11:11 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: perlu byr maintenance, dgn credit card, so sy blh handle benda2 mcm nih

[11:12 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy sbnrya bnyk giler masalah sy xde siapa boleh bincang

[11:12 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: 😔

[11:12 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: 😢

[11:12 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy ckp dgn sorang lelaki nih, sy ckp sy xde kawan, dia kata sy x anggap sy kawan

[11:12 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: masalahnya,

[11:12 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: masalahnya

[11:13 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy mcm omg sy ada masalah nih ko nk bg aku pinjam duit ke?

[11:13 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: benda ni in circle

[11:13 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: takkan sy nk pnjm duit utk cover hutang saya?

[11:13 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: then benda tu sama je

[11:14 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: lgpun dia siapa sy nk bincang masalah duit

[11:14 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: geram la sy

[11:14 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: dgn family pun sy tak cerita, dia siapa

[11:14 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy tetiba ayah sy mntk tolong sy pulak

[11:14 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy mntk akk sy settle tp dia buat tak tau

[11:15 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy nk biar benda ni jd masalah org lain, tp dia xnk amik tau sy nk buat apa. dah la sy kesian ayah saya.

[11:15 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: omg aliya, sorry la sy bombard awak

[11:15 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: tp sy cuma perlu cakap sikit je dgn somebody

[11:16 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: awk x perlu fikirkan pun.

[11:16 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy perlu gaji besar

[11:16 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Sy taktau nak ckp mcm mana. Sbb masalah duit adalah mslh besar sy

[11:16 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Dlm bank sy ada ringgit2 je

[11:16 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: tp sy x blh la kepala sy sakit mcm nk pecah

[11:17 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Nak pergi interview pun tak mampu

[11:17 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Sy tukar semua duit foreign yg sy ada

[11:17 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Sy pun harapkan tiew tu sebenanrnya

[11:17 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Tp takpe la, mungkin kena cari client lain

[11:17 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: diorg ni dok komplen pasal org lain dpt bonus bnyk

[11:17 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy nih duit pun takde!!

[11:17 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: saya geram betul

[11:17 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: camne sy nk fokus

[11:17 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: lol sy buat gak tu hr tuh

[11:17 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Takpe nordiana sy boleh baca

[11:17 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy jual insurance sy, etc

[11:18 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Sy ada emas je sikit

[11:18 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: awk jgn risau sy paham jugak

[11:18 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Tu pun emas reward jual teh

[11:18 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy ada emas mak sy

[11:18 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: haha confirm xleh buat apa

[11:18 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: sil balik mlm td. Lambat sampai sbb nak avoid dr jumpa sy

[11:18 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: dont worry sy cuma nk luahkan skt je

[11:18 AM, 8/2/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sbb bila sy kata sy takde kwn sy mmg rasa lonely abis

[11:18 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Pagi td terserempak

[11:19 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Dia mcm buat xtau je

[11:19 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy rasa i'm so alone in this

[11:19 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur Aliya Nasruddin: Lalu sblh abg dia buat dek tak salam pun

[11:19 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: awk abaikan je sil tuh

[11:19 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Kalau ada problem dgn sy ok la. Tp jgn kurang ajar dgn abg ko

[11:19 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sama la masa tuh

[11:20 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: masa tu sy tak byr hutang sy sbb sy perlu makan, interview, etc

[11:20 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: jgn harap sgt dkt tiew tuh

[11:21 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sbb tu sy tny hr tu, masa awal2 hr tu dia nk ke? dia sanggup ke

[11:21 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: awk kata dia ok je, dia mmg nak

[11:21 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: bgtau harga dia mcm ok.. tp bila bg quotation dia senyap

[11:21 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sbb tu awal2 dh bgtau dulu hr tu

[11:21 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: hmm...

[11:21 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Sbb sy bgtau dia sy taknak hanky panky

[11:21 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: No shortcut

[11:22 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Sbb tu dia senyap

[11:22 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: dia xnk audit tu kan

[11:22 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: dia ada dpt auditor lain ke

[11:23 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: maksud sy consultant lain

[11:23 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: kalau dia xnk xpa sy x kisah pun

[11:23 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: dia yg nk bomba

[11:24 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy perlu buat project management ni sbb project manager sy mcm xtau how to be a project manager je

[11:25 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy kan ada hutang bnyk giler dgn adik sy sbb sy repair keta guna duit dia

[11:27 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Dia kata, kalau boleh auditor takpayah dtg kilang, check doc saja

[11:27 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Ni aspek security, sy taknak nnt jd apa2

[11:28 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Bos dia nak timeline sbb bos dia boleh ckp, boleh i tengok problem apa2 kat part u atau kita. Sy mcm eh. Mcm ni ke consultation job???

[11:29 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: timeline mmg kena bg

[11:29 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: tp, dh dia senyap lps quotation sy pun mls la bg timeline

[11:29 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: citer lain la aliya, sy nk luah perasaan je td

[11:29 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy tatau nk jerit kat siapa

[11:31 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Jerit kat sini

[11:31 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Sy literally jerit sopan

[11:33 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: takleh, ada colleague sy

[11:34 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy dah la x bwk earphone

[11:34 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Pegi toilet

[11:34 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Jeriy

[11:34 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: xpe la sy ok je

[11:34 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Masuk kete, jerit kat sini

[11:34 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Sy ada earfon ni

[11:34 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Ala jerit la please

[11:34 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Sy bg 2 jeritan

[11:35 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Sy solat hajat supaya sy dpt 1 juta pun cukup

[11:36 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Nnt sy bg kat awk kalau Allah makbulkan

[11:36 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: Awk nak berapa k?

[11:36 AM, 8/2/2019] Nur: 😅

[11:42 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy nk byr hutang je, pastu sy blh hidup biasa je

[11:42 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: ni sy bergaduh pulak dgn akk sy

[11:42 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: dia ni mmg xphm org lain dan tak nak paham

[11:42 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: pastu kata setan la apa la

[11:47 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: kufur la...

[11:47 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy kan... mmg la degil skt, tp sy kalau blh nk dunia jadi lebih baik utk semua org tu je

[11:47 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy ni, snobbish ke?

[11:47 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: atau berlagak ke

[11:48 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: atau tak bersyukur ke

[11:48 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy selalu hari2 tny diri saya

[11:48 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: tp akk sy selalu ckp sy mcm tu

[11:48 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy x sesuai ada kat sini

[11:48 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy kalau share knowledge kata sy rasa pandai

[11:49 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: abis.... kalau benda betul ke.. sy nk kena diam ke?

[11:49 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: pastu suka cakap sy provoke

[11:49 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy cam tu ke?

[11:49 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy x paham la

[11:49 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy teruk sgt ke

[11:49 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: kdg2 sy xnk la share pasal benda2 yg mcm sy tau

[11:50 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sbb nnt kata sy suka berlagak mcm pandai

[11:50 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: pastu suka downkan org lain

[11:50 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy camtu ke?

[11:50 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: kalau mcm tu, nnt sy share la gossip pulak

[11:50 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: pun kata saya suka gossip

[11:50 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy teruk sgt ke

[11:51 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: abis sy nk citer pasal anak ke? sy xde anak

[11:51 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: kalau sy ckp psl anak, pasal ajar anak ke, xleh nnt igt sy mcm pandai2 sgt

[11:51 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy geram betul la

[11:51 AM, 8/2/2019] 👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sy ni tak pasal2 cakap pasal family pulak

The world is so unfair!

I don't want to be a busybody. A telltale... but I can't keep this in my head anymore.

With all this problem and issue I had to face on my own...

So I was checking some files
I found that the new auditor never attached any audit notes for auditing...

This give me such a headache. How did the section head manage this now?
The section is in chaos.
And this licensee has history of misuse of label. They are now even in the news for misused of label.

The guy's name is REZAUDDIN HAFIZ BIN ZAINAL.
How did you do the audit without doing the audit notes?
The disadvantage of using online system.

There's another case yesterday.

[7:34 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: org kan tgh tulis blog
[7:35 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sbb td takleh tahan benda salah depan mata pastu takleh nak citer
[7:35 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: org pi check file auditor sbb ada kes salah guna label.
[7:35 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: pastu bila tgk, auditor tak ada audit notes pun utk file tu
[7:36 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sblm ni tgk ada file auditor mana ntah, takde certification report, test report tak pernah renew untuk 10 tahun....
[7:36 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: macam eh teruknya sirim ih
[7:38 PM, 7/19/2019] Ariza Nawi Rinjani: Isk, mcm terukje
[7:38 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: ya Allah Ariza.....
[7:38 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: i feel so bad sgt
[7:38 PM, 7/19/2019] Ariza Nawi Rinjani: Kak d santai, tapi dh knowledgable dah
[7:38 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: condition diorg nih
[7:38 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: takleh selamat kut condition sirim nih
[7:38 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: pastu kan
[7:39 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: kitrg kena buat satu scheme baru
[7:39 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: tp tapi tapi.....
[7:39 PM, 7/19/2019] Ariza Nawi Rinjani: 😂
[7:39 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: since last year takde sesiapa yg follow up
[7:39 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: documents bersepah
[7:39 PM, 7/19/2019] Ariza Nawi Rinjani: Pulak
[7:39 PM, 7/19/2019] Ariza Nawi Rinjani: Pic semua mana
[7:39 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: org taknak kena sabtu ahad, but with this codnition....
[7:39 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: pastu
[7:39 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: job tu bukan org bukan job
[7:40 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: org ni ada consultant as project coordinator
[7:40 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: section head as project manager
[7:40 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: org ni as secretariat je
[7:40 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: but.....
[7:40 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: takde sesiapa follow
[7:40 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: up
[7:40 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: sblm ni ckp diana kena meeting
[7:40 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: pehal
[7:40 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: bila tgk semua kelam kabut
[7:40 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: org mmg la blh buat job tu but this is not my job
[7:41 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: the project manager is the one supposed to do this
[7:41 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: org nk buat, tp serba salah nh
[7:41 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: karang overstepping head plk
[7:41 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: smlm dh la marah dgn colleague
[7:41 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: diorg pi ngulor pastu customer dtg org kena jwb semua
[7:41 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: hr ni mls nk tgk diorg
[7:42 PM, 7/19/2019] Ariza Nawi Rinjani: Napa macam semua tak buat kje
[7:42 PM, 7/19/2019] Ariza Nawi Rinjani: Depa semua buat apa ni
[7:42 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: haha sorry dah tak payah tulis blog nih, dah tulis semua kat sini
[7:42 PM, 7/19/2019] Ariza Nawi Rinjani: Xfhm
[7:42 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: i dont know la ariza
[7:42 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: pastu tgk pulak kat facebook, diorg ni mcm berjaya sgt
[7:43 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: keje tak buat tp berjaya sgt
[7:43 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: hmmm...
[7:43 PM, 7/19/2019] Ariza Nawi Rinjani: Bjya buat bnda lain ke
[7:43 PM, 7/19/2019] Ariza Nawi Rinjani: Jgn tgklaa
[7:43 PM, 7/19/2019] Ariza Nawi Rinjani: Dh tertgk eh😂
[7:43 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: hr tu tgk dgn report x suruh update, cert report tak masukkan dah 5 tahun kut takkan la sampai skrg tak sempat jugak
[7:44 PM, 7/19/2019] diana👩🏻‍💻👷🏽‍♀: org dulu update semua cert report sbb prosee transfer dr manual ke online tu bnyk data tak capture

OMG! I told you I can't stand by in the present of injustice.

29 March 2019

Today isn't a good day. As always, when I decide to write.

I fight with people on the internet. I fight with a friend through whatsapp. I fight against a friend i met only once. Etc.

I can't focus. I can't read. I can't clean up my house. I can't sleep properly.

I can't do a lot of thing.

It's not helping when your neighbour is doing renovation. 

I was planning to go to Fraser's hill or Cameron Highland but I can't bring myself to do it. I can't even clean my house.

Ok this is going to be long but I don't know where it's going. I am going to buy some dinner and go back for cleaning up and then go out again for Shazam. I should have been applying for job for the past 2 weeks but I didn't do anything. The problem is, I can't read I can't do anything. Shall I quit the internet all together?

I wish I know the answer.

6 March 2019

My Wolverine is having this issue again.

Yesterday as I was driving home from work, I need to overtake a very slow car driving in front of me. So I take the right lane and step on the accelerator. Suddenly the engine light blinking and the car began to shack vigorously when I slowed down. It is really upsetting, but what can I do... I have been neglecting the care for so many months now. I even skip the regular service until almost 2 months later.

So this morning I skip work to go to the workshop. Actually, I plan to take just a few hours off, but I am too scared about the damage to my car that I have been delaying it so much. I also plan to just take the day off.

What I don't expect is people looking for me in the office. First is Shal when actually it is Atun looking for some documents or something. Then suddenly my "friend" AC call me. (It is in "" because he keep mentioning that, nothing more). It was unexpected. I initially don't want to talk to pick up any office call but I just did, wondering what makes him call me. When I said hello suddenly he said he was looking for Shal. I said this is not her, and he knows her number maybe? Then he proceeds by asking me if I'm on leave today which I said I am. He said it is because I live far, which confuses me. Anyway, he said ok and see me tomorrow, which I agree. That's just about 11.40am when it's about to lunch hour. I don't think he accidentally calls me or he doesn't know my colleague's number. I think he purposely calls to make sure I am still working there. I can't say that he misses me that's absurd, even though he seems to be coming to our office every day and finding reasons to talk to me? I don't know, people can be weird.

Anyway, Ida also looks for me, wondering if I'm sick or anything. Don't know that I somehow put some impact on people especially when I am leaving.

Talking about Wolverine, I don't know how much damage did I have to handle. The coil, the bulb, the sensors. Well, later will have to upload the photo of actual cost and what did happen today.

So for today's story, I just want to highlight on these few events that I found interesting. Funnily enough, I have a crush on YF but this AC seems to keep giving me attention.