The journey that turn sour

I know I said to post the details of the accident, but I'm not sure how...

Well, it was a planned holiday and we look forward for that. But, things just went wrong. How would we know right?

It was a very nice place. Lata Kinjang in Tapah, Perak. But the place is too slippery and dangerous...
We had fun, took few pictures until, my adventurous side get me into this...
I was thinking that I would like to go further at the place where some other people went. Very near to the waterfall. All the while, we just dipping at the safe pool very near to a shady tree.
But, there's some very big rock there which are very slippery....
We were there all the time, stepping on the rock so many times, but...
Suddenly there was a big lizard come around our resting place and one of my fren get scared, and me, not careful enough accidently sliped and my face go straight to the big rock......
Ah!... I am traumatized with the accident. I can still see the pieces of my teeth on the rock. And then I see it... One teeth actually fall on the rock also, and I can only imagine......
Then the blood start coming out. Alot!
I know it won't stop. I know it won't stop immediately. Coz I got my teeth in my palm...
I was thinking, how will I look. I know it is the front one.
OMG!
Ya Allah!
What happen to me..? How does this happen to me?
Why? Why the front teeth?
Why it has to come out..?
I want to go to hospital..
Pls, rush me to the hospital please!
Now! Immediately! I need to fix this!
Argh!!!....

Blood start pouring out like the waterfall in front of me, and I don't dare to think of how will I look. I'm totally panic.

When unfortunate thing happen....

I need early rest and the painkiller's not working. Yet this blog really pissed me off! Feel like I would like to remove the blog and move to another provider.
There's really unfortunate event took place today, and I officially make myself ugly today, on 27 Dec 08...
Yet, I was not all... They come in series... the doctor come in a bit late, there's no clinic open tomorrow, the hospital there is not fully equipped, and the earliest I can go to a clinic will be on Tuesday, 30 Dec 08. How I wish, there will be one tomorrow...I really don't wish to meet other people until I'm confident and comfortable, and it will only happen after 1 month.
How I wish I don't have to meet people in 1 month time!
Being in this condition, really open my eyes of who the real friend is. Who will be with you for fun and happy only and who will stick around when you need them the most...
I dont think that I will put a long and detail entry today as I am not able to stand anymore, but I will try to put
a detail entry tomorrow if I can... For myself... My face is swollen, and it is start to pain more and more now..
I wonder if thers's anything that causing such unfortunate thing to happen to me, but I dont know.
Being in such condition make me think of people who happen to be in fight, boxing, extreme sport... Don't they feel the pain? How about those born with ugly feature, or cacat... I wonder how they feel... I should be grateful shouldn't I?...

changes...

life is not simple... it never is..
i have been thinking of writing back in blog, but i'm not too sure
last nite i was thinking that maybe i started to hate guy
i don't know what do i need guy for
i earn my own living, i change my own tyre, i fix my own sink & toilet, i change my own bulb, even rectify where the problem lies, change mcb...
i know there's other use for guy other than these, but at the moment i'm doing fine with my own..
well, there's other things in life than finding your soulmate right?
i'm trying to do all the things that i dont have the chance of doing before, but i think this is the best time now

my first entree

i start my blog on the day i got ditched.
dats y, i choose the title as looking for love.
i think i'm desperately looking for love right now, or I'm going crazy.

urgh!! this blog also testing my patient

I hate this guy so, much which i sayang so much before
Now think about it, whatever he told me before is a lie....
he's not handsome, not rich, not young, not cool
but I juz love him
now he's leaving me as he think it's the best??
it's the best for you only ok!!
you selfish, (&*&(*&*,(*@0 whatever....

how could he dont even want to see me for even the last time?
and thru phone only..??
who the hell he think he is?
I have been thinking of leaving him for a long time, but i cant accept that he say he want us to go separate way
no way!!! he dont have the right to do so, or else i think he's been using me all this while

urgh! this feeling sucks. i never knew this feeling as this is the first time beeing ditched.
this is even my first love....
really, i really need somebody now. this is a forbidden love so nobody knows
this is making me crazy....
God help me...