When you don't know where you are and you can't get out..

The title just describe what I feel right now. If anybody ask me what happen to me, what am I doing, why am I being like this... I'll be frank. I don't know. I Do Not Know. I can't tell something that I can't describe. I just lost everything I was.

Where am I?

Where am I heading?

Why am I like this?

I had a very big plan in front of me, I had the future in my vision, I had my ambition, I had friends which I appreciate.. now I don't have any of that. 

Because I lost hope.

I lost something in my mind, which I can't figure out.

Sometimes I want to cry, but I can't.

I lost my will to eat.

I lost my will to fight.

I lost my aim.

I lost my goal.

I lost a lot.

I don't care about friend.

I don't care about the world.

I can't get up.

I can't focus.

I can't do anything! Nothing.

Why am I like this?

How do I get up and feel alive again?

I can't live like this. I can't even find the will to live....

I disappoint my parents.

That make me cry every time.