Ignorance is a bliss..

So I had a second look into this saying today.

Ignorance is a bliss. It really is.
I really want to be happy in whatever I do and however I live.
Anyway  don't want to be an ignorant.

In an article I read today it says on 15 things you need to give up in order to be happy.

I do agree with most of it, except I just notice that the writer is asking us to just be an ignorant.

"Give up your resistance to change, Give up the luxury of criticism, Give up complaining, Give up on blame, Give up on being always right.."

Well they are innocent enough when you read it at first but I am just reading about the other topic on our minister asking us to work 2 jobs to be able to live comfortably in our environment.
I have to criticize and blame them for the price hike and their ignorance on middle income people like us. Those who want to live comfortably without sacrificing our need to be with family, friend, social needs, emotional need. 

I do notice how this writer ask us not to care so much for the things around us (else we will complaint too much ain't us? and complaining, and blaming. While we are complaining to the higher authority, we need to stand for our right shan't us? 
This will apply also if I decide to care for other issue in the world today. If I just ignore the climate issue for example, or refugee issue, and don't speak out, I will be more happy won't I?

I decide that I will not be an ignorant today, no matter how much I want to be happy. I will be a happy person who live happily helping people.
That's what I decide to do.

My master's journey

man... it's hard.

I has been 4 months and I haven't able to grasp yet about this reality. I am so lost and not sure what am I doing.
Others already submitted their thesis and here I am still struggling in writing the literature review. I didn't even remember (know) what is the literature review and how am I suppose to write it when I was first told to write my proposal.
It's so damn hard.

I am already late to submit, yet I am still not finish.

I want to do this but I just feel so damn hard at time.

Everybody else already start their review and where I am?
Here, and I wanna cry.

No, I don't want to cry. I am just exhausted. My neck pained, my back hurts, my hand tired, my eyes... just like zombie. If there's zombie apocalypse right now, they won't know I'm human. I may be able to escape. Heck, I may not know it's zombie apocalypse outside.

p/s: this is my first time writing about my master's journey. It may not be the last time.
p/s/s: damn it's hard to be and older student.

new life

I conclude my working life today. I can't believe it actually. I really miss working already. I am not sure why but I miss my office.
It's not perfect, it don't pay very well, but I can't stop missing it. It's true though.
After 7 full years, I finally leave my work. It's depressing but it's fulfilling too.
I learn communicate. I got to travel a lot. I earn my enrich point so much. I got to go to Korea, China (many places), India, Indonesia, Japan, Italy, Austria, Germany, Thailand, Vietnam all in the name of work. I got to travel first class once in the name of work. I got to meet many people from many places, I learn a lot of new things in the name of work.
Anyway, there's a lot of thing which I can't wait to get rid of, to get better of, and many more. I loss sleep, I hate my superior, my colleague, my company, my job, my management, my pay. I see my youth leave me, wasted. I hate to be burdened with so many works and feel unappreciated, then blamed. I hate doing extra work but nobody actually appreciated. I am sad that my pay is so low i can't even buy a house. I hate that I began hating travel because I have been depressed. Yes, I get depression working in this company. I see no improvement, I see that I cannot grow anymore in the place I am. I am worried I'm gonna die alone. My health become so bad I keep getting sick. I get so exhausted I don't care about other things. I give up all hope, I give up motivation. I lost all interest, I lost all motivation, I lost purpose.
That's why I need to quit. I need to recharge. I need to find all the things which I lost. I need to refresh. I need to find all the good thing which lost being under this depression. I need to learn new things and feel useful again. I do love a lot of things, but I need to find a reason to love again because I've forgotten how.

p/s: rant initially written but not posted in 4th Sept 2015, so no I am not just conclude my working life today, and yes I quite miss working, and another yes studying is hard like. Really hard. Up all night doing assignment I feel I'm too old to do this.

New

Hello world.
It has been a while.
It's because I've been ranting on the other side of the world lately.
No, actually there's too many apps, too many social networking, too busy, and lots more. I lost track of my life.
So, what's new? I've been transferred to another section. Yeah. Mean no more auditing (that's fine) but no more travel too (omaigoshwhatamigonnado). I haven't figure that out yet. I also just bought a house for my self. Yes. The most expensive thing, property I even own (about to own). Yes it's not final yet. So, it is the most challenging thing I have to deal with at the moment. Other than the bossy boss who can't boss well. I am okay to leave him. More than okay, but I just don't know about future yet.
Work have been really craaaazzzyyyyyyyy lately, but I got to go to Italy, Germany and Austria for work so I think I was not bad. I just gonna miss that travel sooooo much.
I fall in love. Or maybe the idea of fall in love. I can't fall in love with somebody I don't know or I can't even remember face right? The idea to fall in love is kinda nice. But I have yet to find my Mr right. Maybe I'm still too scared. I just hope that life will be better after this, life will fall into places so I can find my Benedict Cumberbatch, or Joseph-Gordon Levitt or even George Clooney. I'm gonna learn some new language, most probably mba mandarin, French and Germany. I just fall in love with Guten morgen I think .

And I am planning to start a new blog. The real one. Maybe a really good one. To share and do thing I love. And I decide to write so writing a well known blog could help to promote.
I hope.

Life doesn't end when you ask them to stop. It will end when you stop trying.

tuhan, aku hanya minta diberikan kekuatan...

aku hanya minta diberikan kekuatan ya Allah,
jadi aku dapat menjalani hidup dengan lebih baik...
jadi aku dapat tabah menghadapi ujianMu.

maka, aku tidak minta agar diberikan hidup yang mudah,
kerana aku tahu, tiada kejayaan dapat dikecapi dengan mudah,
tapi, jangan la Kau beriku ujian demi ujian, yang tidak dapat aku tempuhi,
kerana, sesungguhnya aku ini hambaMu yang lemah...

tuhan,
aku dambakan ketenangan,
adakah jalan yang kupilih selama ini salah?
jika ia, tunjukkanlah aku jalan yang benar...

25August2012(12:41) = 7 shawwal1433H

i am just so fed up with the system. so fed up

With the system already adding our current job and task like double or triple time, and does not helping at time like this, and working long hours still does not help anything at all, I don't know if I can cope and work under this type of situation.
We are trying to clear up all the task while coping up with the additional job and the change in situation I do not know if I can still perform the work.

i wish i can type all the above into the footnote of my email.
I wish I have not so much loan that I need to clear so I can just pack and go.
I wish i wish i wish

"Puan,

I am referring to your rejection remarks for TS Brilliant task (renewal and termination) as I cannot reply my reason on the task itself (in the SCIS).

Renewal(Amendment) P5-001227 - Approved suspension period till ?? - (approved suspension is until 17 Feb 2012)

Termination (amendment) P5-001481  - CP wants a signed letter with company's letter head as official evidence.

Puan,

Termination (amendment) P5-001481
This licensee has 3 license with SIRIM which currently under suspension since January 2012. (17/01/2012) and the suspension period is only 1 month as the company does not response any on surveillance.
The suspension is leading to termination.

So as the suspension period has already been over for few months, I just think it is wise to terminate the license already.

In the midst of that I have contacted the their PIC and they say that they maybe like to continue one of their license (cooker hood_PT063802) and terminate the licenses for induction cooker PT063801 & PT063803, therefore I requested them to send me an email saying that they do not want to continue the license.

I wonder why the CP will need another letter for this type of termination as it is imposed termination and not requested by client?
Or, do they want me to keep the file under suspension even though they have been long overdue suspension?? Which I don't understand.
If yes, it is easier for me not to follow up on this type of issue, and let the file status to be maintained in suspension.

Renewal(Amendment) P5-001227
- the renewal is needed to clear the task only. I have check with Tina and she said that license for file under suspension will not be printed.

This particular file, the licensee still want to maintain the license but somehow do not response to my audit request yet. They would like to maintain license as they still have some stock in their warehouse.
I have not raise termination for this file as I am still waiting for their response.

For file under suspension, do we no need to submit the renewal task? I submit the renewal as the company already made the payment for renewal, and the renewal task appear in my task. I checked with Tina and safidah previously, that renewal for file under suspension still need to be submitted, but the license will not be printed.

Anyway, I have check the suspension status for these 3 license in our brilliant system eSCIS and I can't find any, which I don't know why.
For info, this licenses were suspended using the eSCIS, not manually as they were done on Jan 2012.
But if checked for the file list, we can see all these were suspended since 17 Jan 2012.

I attached here the relevant documents for you to review as I cannot paste a print screen picture on the email itself as I am currently using my own netbook as the company laptop is having problem (again!). Pls refer them in the jpeg file, as you may consume alot of time in if you need to check them in the system as you will have to open them one by one to review the files, and status and in the end the result is still disappointing.
I cannot attached the email from the client as it was saved in my outlook mail in my laptop which I don't bring during this travel to oversea.


Some of the issue here is, why the status of suspension for these 3 files are not in the suspension list? Is it all depends on us to check everything and highlight everything to the system creator?

And for the CP request, why do we need to have a signed letter with company's letter head as official evidence for a license which we want to impose termination? The suspension was accepted last time without that, but why do we still need that in the termination process which continue from that? The suspension was long overdue also, so if the termination is not needed then i'd just be happy to leave the file status as it is.

I think it is quite difficult for us to response in the scis, as they do not have a remarks column for us to response immediately, and to reply everything in the email. We can only resubmit, but column to highlight our remarks?

Thanks & Rgds,"

...something missing?

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have I missed 

something?

yes..

i missed "U"